Pammy's LJ

Because I like blogging for my friends...


According to K-Ci and JoJo Haley...
DON'T RUSH (TAKE LOVE SLOWLY).
Less chances if getting hurt I suppose?
and what's the rush anyway?
[as Monsee and I have agreed that MATURITY ALSO COMES W AGE.]


TAMA, MONSEE. TAWANAN NALANG KASI ANG MGA PROBLEMA...and our non-existent love lives! :))
KUDOS TO YOU...because you did SIX and I had FIVE. ANG GALING NATIN, no?
and we will always be camwhore-slash-parteeei-slash-tribute-teammates-and-[sootobe]retreat-roomies-with-yen? :D

...
until we go clubbin' and bouncing to BEP's DIRTY DANCING *wink*


Eto nalang last hirit ko for this ungodly hour na TAMA BANG ISULAT SA PALANCA?
LOVE TILL IT HURTS, LOVE TILL IT HURTS MORE, LOVE TILL IT HURTS NO MORE.
*coughs* and guess who was the freakin' dude who wrote that on his letter for me?
BOW. I applaud YOU for that. SALAMAT HA. :l
[Nevertheless, thanks. IT MADE ME SMILE. YOU KNOW YOU HAVE A WAY W ME.]
*laughtrippareeeeeeeeeee*

YOU CAN NEVER BE TRULY READY FOR THINGS LIKE THESE
AS WHEN FATE SLAPS YOU ON THE FACE LIKE THAT
THE PAIN YOU FEEL CAN BE UNBEARABLE
AND NO ONE CAN SAY THEY'VE HAD IT HARDER
BECAUSE YOUR WORST DAY WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR WORST DAY
NO ARGUMENTS NEEDED.


No, I am NOT emo.
I am just verbalizing it for a FRIEND.
And no, not BURGIS EMO either. :p
But I love 'em both. :)


 TO THE ICTUS ALUMNI:
Thank YOU to all our late-night conversations
and spending the entire aft w me in YM
YOU DUNNO HOW MUCH I HAVE LEARNED FROM YOU GUYS
with our "kwento sessions" these past few days.


Duane, Janie, Melai, Berto, Bobby, Dennis --- Thanks for the insightful chat sessions. :)
...and to everyone who replied w the details I need for the Alumni Directory.


BACK TO BASICS.
We can do this.
To ICTUS and the ExeComm 09to10. :)

The boys from around Ortigas
Those whom I love
JUST BECAUSE.
...
...
...
In my efforts to fix the alumni directory of ICTUS
Struggling to add each yg mem to my ym list
[How Mr. YM had an overload of pending invites and wouldn't accept any more for now.]
As I promised to start my job as lia head the earliest possible.
...
...
...
So there
I got to chat w three of 'em:

Dennis (Dennis Cheng)
Working as a Tech Services head in Bayantrade
Graduated from Xavier so YEY :)
[as my conclusion holds true
that i get along pretty easily w those xvians]
But he's living healthy now
Thus no booze for him
[sad but theres still ictus bball anyway].


Berto (Milbert Sosmena)
ICTUS '03
BA CR
Currently working in Dubai
A Samaskom-er like Sir Deo
[but claims he was not brutal even w the apps]

...
and Duane whom I chatted w the longest
[and i apparently beat raf as he is the longest second gen ictusian duane has talked w]

Duane (Duane Luis Magpili)
ICTUS '99
BS CS
[who even proudly gave his student number]
And *GASP* is an LSGH BOY
[AS HE CALLED ME "MORTAL ENEMY"
UPON LEARNING I WAS AN EAGLES LOYALIST]
But we eventually got past that
[Though we both agreed how fun it would've been
if we we're in ICTUS at the same time
with the never-ending hiritans about the games]
BUT I LEARNED QUITE A LOT FROM HIM TONIGHT
As to the ICTUS BACK IN THE OLD DAYS
Which he has YET TO DWELL INTO (W THE DETAILS)
Hopefully in the coming days (before he leaves for Dubai again).


...
BECAUSE I HAVE COME INTO TERMS W MYSELF
TO LET GO
AS IT IS FOR THE BEST
AND I AM SLOWLY FINDING MY HAPPINESS AGAIN. :)

...
Also because I realized that
I HAVE SPOKEN TOO SOON...apparently...TWICE even.
As for my "MEAN" COMMENT ABOUT XVIANS
[the day before our interaction w 'em]
*NOW LOOK WHERE I AM*HARplusBURGISbellatc/oRap*
and that I USED TO HATE those LSGH boys
But now I find their company pretty cool
AS I CONSTANTLY BUMP INTO LA SALLIANS WHO ALTER MY VIEW OF THEM
BREAKING MY PRECONCEIVED NOTIONS OF THE BOYS FROM GH
HAVING ME EAT- MY-WORDS-FOR-THE-NTH-TIME.
...
...
BECAUSE I SPOKE TOO SOON.
...
...
BUT HE WILL ALWAYS BE "NO REGRETS REGRETS"
AS THE "REGRETS" just LURKS IN THE AREA.
Whaddya know?
I might meet him in the months to come.
Ask one of the bullies from my org
He might be friends w him after all. :p
Why?
TIS A SMALL WORLD AFTER ALL.
...
...

Because I will listen to my CUTIE KUYA
[as long as he ALLOWS ME TO CALL HIM "KUYA" IN PUBLIC]
As I TERRIBLY MISS having him around
And that...
JUST BECAUSE HE IS MY KD. :)


So, where shall I send my boy to study in the future?
Ateneo, La Salle or Xavier?
...
...
Let me get back to you on that.

For now,
ZHAO AN. :)

WISH IT WERE JUST INSOMNIA.
Cos I am a bit wee tired of THIS.


IF YOUR BODY MATCHES WHAT YOUR EYES CAN DO. :p
paralyzer.finger eleven


WANTS TO BACKPACK AROUND ASIA.

First stop:
North Vietnam.
To try their rice whiskey
Which seems a bit too strong
Even for the likes of travelogue host Anthony Bourdain. ;)


INSOMNIA.
My new fave.
On repeat mode.
:D
Dang!
I can listen to this for an entire day. :p

If It's Okay With You . Shayne Ward
I like how he dances.
Theres this certain gracefulness about it.
OR THATS JUST ME.
Dunno.
Just that I heart this song and the dance.
I like the cam shots where they show the footwork...
I like the splashing water part.


RETURN OF THE COMEBACKS.
I cannot believe Sel and Pau played dota again.
And I thought the bballers are...*mustkeephermouthshut*.
So now they can also be related to as SCRUFFY MONKEYS.
The most dreaded label for the ICTUS boys.
Hahaha! I'm just kidding!
I LOVE YOU SCRUFFIES! :)
After all, DOTA EQUATES TO FELLOWSHIP, right?
The way I see it...
Dota [and other activities like bball] are part of what bonds the mems and alumni
And for that I think this whole concept of reg sessions is beneficial.
For a cause...for a common good...
And that is to keep the relationship strong even after graduation.
[gaaaaawd, i miss my hs gurlies big time]


SO, THAT'S HOW TIS GON' BE, HUH?
Rudeness much? :l


I really think...
I LEFT MY HEART IN SAN FO.
[damn those Ghirardelli squares.]


"If you'll die tomorrow, why not today?"
Seriously.
Why not?
Cos SEEING YOU is getting a lil' TOO irritating.
Not helping me...NOT.ONE.BIT. :l

I AM CONSTANTLY DIGGING MY OWN GRAVE.
What's NOT wrong with me?

I need A BREAK FROM YOU.
BADLY.


HATE THAT I LOVE YOU.
So?
[MTV shoot this aft w Miggy.]


sssssSsssTUTTER.
Hell yeah.
I DO remember.
Fun times...FUN TIMES. :))
[plus THAT V RECENT MEM. har.]


PROLONGED AGONY.
[Yes, I mean it on both terms.]
Hoping FRIDAY will be the end of one of them.
As the other I am still working on.
[Yeah, RIGHT. Tssssk!] :l
No longer stuck...
Because five years was just 'nuff.
But WAS THERE A CONSCIOUS EFFORT on my part?
Doubt that.
Still, theres a NEW THING TO POUT ABOUT
As I constantly (AND WILLFULLY) DIG A DEEPER HOLE FOR MYSELF.
[Suicidal much? Haha! I say, JUST SMILE.] :D


BECAUSE BETTER DAYS ARE TO COME...
I KNOW IT...I JUST DO. ;)


Congratulations to Tito Guy and [now] Tita Trish (Chiongbian)!
To the start of a beautiful life together.
Welcome to the family, Trish!

I AM A DEFENSIVE BEING.
I TEND TO BECOME ARGUMENTATIVE
Especially when I cannot get my message across.
Thus THE NEED TO BE MORE ARTICULATE
As I sometimes have difficulty explaining myself to people.
And end up being misunderstood.

Pointed out by my BC 123 [TV writing class] professor Ma'am Jane Vinculado.  


Bullied by Perci, Migs and Emil Tuesday aft.
Lakers. Tssssssssssk.
I don't care if the Spurs is just number two.
My loyalty still lies with San Antonio.
Go Parker! Go Ginobili! 
Hopefully they make it to the finals this time.

Luckily, Jobert wasn't there to make matters worse. :p


SELF CONTROL.
ALMOST survived it last Tuesday.
But I am TOO MUCH OF A WEAKLING RIGHT NOW.
Give me this one as I am stressed as evaaa.
I need a break, something to HELP ME UNWIND.
[alcohol optional]
Two words: WITHDRAWAL SYNDROME. =))

And no, I'm not talking about  drugs or alcohol.


[randomly mentioned stuff in our conversation a few nights ago]
yls: i guess povedans are the pinakamaarte
yls: sa tingin ng general population
yls: but that's only because we have a certain 'air'
pam: anong AIR yan
yls: i think
yls: it's because most of us are really confident
yls: frank
yls: and speaks really well
yls: in which they find intimidating
pam: and that already equates to being aloof?
pam: ganun?
yls: yeah
pam: bahala sila
yls: that's human nature
pam: sorry na magaling tayo mag english  >> thank you to everyone who thinks that but it isn't always true, yannoe. :p
pam: :))
yls: haha. oo
yls: but yun nga
yls: i think it's the ability to express ourselves well
yls: and (1) either the accent
pam: but i actually suck at that  >> my need to be more articulate in fact
yls: or (2) the loud voice
pam: i dont think i have a loud voice
pam: do i?
yls: haha
yls: no
pam: may accent ba tlaga ako?
yls: (1) ka lang
yls: yeah.
yls: may accent ka talaga
yls: super 'povedan'
...
yla.paras: well ako i noticed lang yours with IPIL
yla.paras: :))
pinksalpicao: :))
pinksalpicao: that infamous IPIL
[pbk goes to baguio inside joke]

And THIS ONE I still cannot understand. :l


Conclusion:
PAM IS A DEFEENSIVE BEING WITH AN "ACCENT".


...
And on one uneventful Wednesday...

YOU THINK IT'LL MAKE THINGS EASIER, BUT IT JUST MADE MATTERS MORE DIFFICULT...WORSE THAN THAT EVEN. :l


...
When do I get my time in the limelight?
When will I find my place under the sun?
My share of the cake or that cherry on my ice cream?
Before it melts...
Along with my hopes and dreams.


COUNTING THE DAYS TILL THE CALENDAR HITS LATE MARCH...
...
AND THEN IMMA BE INTERNING IN ORTIGAS. :D
...
RX or NU?
I still want NU. :l
[Perci agrees. Long live OPM indie rock!]


...
Raimund said he cannot give passes for my cousin.
Promoter is too strict about the event.
Dangnamit!
I was hoping I can watch the concert c/o Marasigan. :(


To the ICTUS bballers:
Have fun on your game tomorrow!
Thanks for the invite, Paulo. :) 
Unfortunately, I have a lunch at Forbes already set.

I AM A DEFENSIVE BEING.
I TEND TO BECOME ARGUMENTATIVE
Especially when I cannot get my message across.
Thus THE NEED TO BE MORE ARTICULATE
As I sometimes have difficulty explaining myself to people.
And end up being misunderstood.

Pointed out by my BC 123 [TV writing class] professor Ma'am Jane Vinculado.  


Bullied by Perci, Migs and Emil Tuesday aft.
Lakers. Tssssssssssk.
I don't care if the Spurs is just number two.
My loyalty still lies with San Antonio.
Go Parker! Go Ginobili! 
Hopefully they make it to the finals this time.

Luckily, Jobert wasn't there to make matters worse. :p


SELF CONTROL.
ALMOST survived it today.
But I am TOO MUCH OF A WEAKLING RIGHT NOW.
Give me this one as I am stressed as evaaa.
I need a break, something to HELP ME UNWIND.
[alcohol optional]
Two words: WITHDRAWAL SYNDROME. =))

And no, I'm not talking about  drugs or alcohol.


[randomly mentioned stuff in our conversation last night]
yls: i guess povedans are the pinakamaarte
yls: sa tingin ng general population
yls: but that's only because we have a certain 'air'
pam: anong AIR yan
yls: i think
yls: it's because most of us are really confident
yls: frank
yls: and speaks really well
yls: in which they find intimidating
pam: and that already equates to being aloof?
pam: ganun?
yls: yeah
pam: bahala sila
yls: that's human nature
pam: sorry na magaling tayo mag english  >> thank you to everyone who thinks that but it isn't always true, yannoe. :p
pam: :))
yls: haha. oo
yls: but yun nga
yls: i think it's the ability to express ourselves well
yls: and (1) either the accent
pam: but i actually suck at that  >> my need to be more articulate in fact
yls: or (2) the loud voice
pam: i dont think i have a loud voice
pam: do i?
yls: haha
yls: no
pam: may accent ba tlaga ako?
yls: (1) ka lang
yls: yeah.
yls: may accent ka talaga
yls: super 'povedan'
...
yla.paras: well ako i noticed lang yours with IPIL
yla.paras: :))
pinksalpicao: :))
pinksalpicao: that infamous IPIL
[pbk goes to baguio inside joke]

And THIS ONE I still cannot understand. :l


Conclusion:
PAM IS A DEFEENSIVE BEING WITH AN "ACCENT".


...
And on one uneventful Wednesday...

YOU THINK IT'LL MAKE THINGS EASIER, BUT IT JUST MADE MATTERS MORE DIFFICULT...WORSE THAN THAT EVEN. :l


...
When do I get my time in the limelight?
When will I find my place under the sun?
My share of the cake or that cherry on my ice cream?
Before it melts...
Along with my hopes and dreams.


COUNTING THE DAYS TILL THE CALENDAR HITS LATE MARCH...
...
AND THEN IMMA BE INTERNING IN ORTIGAS. :D

If I get rushed to the hospital because of an injury due to exercising,
Don't be surprised (as I, myself, won't be).
I have a tendency to do movements I haven't done in a while
[like reverse crunches w leg lifts]
Which can result to me getting hurt yet again.
Tis as if I never learn.
But I do. :)
I just am a bit stubborn that I do not follow. :p
Right now.

 

Reverse crunches are fun to do! 
[tis really easy to do in fact]
I learned that from stretching class actually.
That was during my first year first sem in UPd.
Just that my left shoulder hurt a bit earlier.
But oh well...
Exercise must continue. :p


Anyone want to teach me a new hiphop routine?
Something to replace my old school dance workout...
Cos I am getting pretty bored w it already.
It'll lose its magic soon. :l


BUT I'LL NEVER TIRE OF DANCING...
Even if I cannot exactly dance...
Tis called 'passion', tis l-o-v-e.
:)


CONFUSED.
J-J-JADED.
A sesh w Bro. Pat or a retreat will be good.
But I gotta DECIDE SOON. :l

I want a SUPER PROXY shirt. :D
Preferably in black.
But white will do since tis almost summer.
Francis M-Ely Buendia collab. *bow*


My jologs self took over this aft.
Went on an OPM listening sesh.
[do you remember the introvoys and neocolors? ...i thought so.] :))
And reconnected w my love for the music of the 70s/80s.
"Rosanna" and "Pamela" of Toto.
[vain much? nah. only learned they had that song last year!]


"Dancing should be freeing. If you're stuck on something, you shouldnt be dancing." :)
- taken from the Korean film Innocent Steps
[har. is that why I still suck at it?] :))


Yey! My SV ym-ed me this evening. I have a gift already! I just havta go to SC to get it though. :)
[Thanks, SV! I'm sure Imma like it.]


Inuman on Monday aft? If GING, MONSEE and KOR are coming...Count me in! ;)
[gotta fix summer vacs/trips soon! imma intern to so sheeeeez. lunch w me in galle or mega, people!]

Because I love Ging so I agreed to this
LA field trip around the Manila area
Despite my obvious lack of sleep
We managed to make the most of this trip.
[epal lang kami ni gab]

No camwhoring sesh as I did not have my cam.
[boo. i know, right? saaaaaaaaad, ging!]
So the whole trip was spent just talking
And teasing and making fun of me shoti.
[peace, gabieee. achi still loves her shoti.]
Some MAJOR BONDING TIME. :)


Highlights of the field trip:
- Finding our way to the Guadalupe ferry station.
- Shoti's reason why we were in sneaks.
[ingat, gab. baka ka mabasa.] =))
- Ging almost crying because she thought Gab was already mad. ll "We hit the spot, Ging." - *me*
[sorry, ging! i had to do that favor for shoti since i was making fun of him the entire morning too.]
- Eating ice cream along Binondo.
[my second for the month so gab had to finish it]
- Gab does not even want to touch Ging's mirror.
- STORIES SHARED. HIRITS MADE. :D
- CONSTANT STRUGGLE TO KEEP AWAKE DURING THE WHOLE TRIP. :l
[ive only had a 3-hour sleep; gab had 7-8 bottles of beer; ging slept for 7 hours. fair share, huh?]


Jap food for lunch in Shang.
Kitaro since there was no Tboy.
Ordered my staple chix teriyaki
While the other two had katsudon.
[jap is comfort food; i want philly cal maki in sushi-ya still.]
[hope youre feeling better ging]

"Vincent" played on my way home yday.
STARRY STARRY NIGHT.
[or were those just my eyes twinkling that night?] :p
Awwshucks!
I miss these days. *blush*

I agree w Edel.
Mr. Torpe is cute at times
But for the most part, they're just plain annoying.
BOYS WILL BE BOYS. :l
[i miss u, edel!]


"CHIVALRY'S NOT DEAD."
Something I learned almost six years ago
And apparently there are still gentlemen
Lurking in this topsy-turvy world.
[thus those five years weren't a waste...overjoyed much?]


GING :) thanks for inviting me and gab to tag along on your LA field trip. had smuch fun! too bad we weren't able to camwhore! dang! more bonding sessions soon.  hope you're feeling better, hun! :-*

SHOTI :) achi hearts her shotiiiiiii. thanks for being all kuya-ish w us. she is ashamed proud of gabieee but does not owe him anything because shoti lufffss achi too. that talk stays between the two of us, okay? no more *coughs* until after finals. take care, sweety. :)

GEL :) next time u have to be there already! u missed a lot but im pretty sure u got the full story by now. yikeeee! :p  miss u, inaanak! sucks we didn't have a cam. boo. see u at the tambs, hun. :-*


To my SV: para kitang liligawan this week. magiging isa akong suitor. naksssssss! :p
[actually, i haven't thought about how i will go about my plans. brainstorm time!]


...
Enjoyed listening to Mellow this aft.
THIS LOVE (is really luffff) and it brought me back to my hs days. :p
"I'll Be There" by MC.
"I Will" sang the Beatles. :)
["i love u forever and forever, love w all my heart, love u whenever we're together, love u when we're apart"]


NBA ALL STARS kicks off next week!
Effin' excited!
Go West!
[cos i haven't heard "king of wishful thinking" for a while.]
I wanna watch the SLAM DUNK COMP liveeeeee! :D
[tis my dream to see this live...one day i shall. tis the event i always look forward too during the all stars.] :)

Thursday aft
SATURATION POINT.
One more strike and you're out.
Because I've just had 'nuff.
Imma snap anytime soon.

Thanks, Edel. Felt smuch better after our talk. Sorry dozed off though. Was effin tired. :l


Friday night
Still pissed but a lot better.
Because even if...and that...
Still doesn't change the fact that...
Senti-slash-old school music helped me chill.

^How To Deal.Frankie J
^Gallery.Mario Vasquez
^Where Are You.Natalie feat. Justin Roman
^Tell Me It's Real.K-Ci & JoJo
^old school rnb and boybands ;p

"I've been trying too hard not to love you but I love you anyway...It's unbelievably hard to love you but I love you anyway..." - Love You Anyway.Boyzone

Sorry, Gabieee. Achi has her hang-ups too. :l
And let's keep THAT between the sibs. Shoti promise? ;)


Sat am
[Seth during CLA]
Silverware. Bakit? Ano ba yan? =))
[tis quite diff to teach that to the kids, dude! we start w fork-knife-spoon, okay?]
[Miggy over lunch at KFC Technohub]
Bobotohin. =))
[theres no such word, miggy. sa tingin mo iboboto pa kita ngayon? and u call me coño?]
[Rap over lunch]
Okay fine. He was just hot seat. The hirits still came mostly from us.
"Pick...the six girls or pwede na rin si Seth."
[talk about insult] :))


TIS A SMALL WORLD INDEED. :)
Right, Rap?
Because Rap knows my ACET 6'4 crush whom I learned (immediately after the exam) was gay.
[but not all vballers are gay, korina! and tis more fun to watch men's vball matches...univ of hawaii warriors!]
And that my friend, Tim, and Rap's older bro are kadas in DLSU.
Eventually you'll learn to study in the tambs, dude. ;)
[how did your ES1 exam go?]


Left 4 Dead, here I come.
As I need to take out my frustration on something
So I shall re-visit my childhood hobby.
Because guess who else is playing this?
[hahaha; i meant that as a joke.]

...
Sat aft spent at the tambs-slash-Shang w Nicole.
My bff is smitten.
But PICTURE OF YOU was meant for *coughs*.
As OVERJOYED and COLOURBLIND are staples on my playlist. :)


"I guess I've found my inspiration." ...but i missed *coughs* by a second. Dang! WHERE ARE YOU?


Excited with the SECRET VALENTINE proj of SecComm. :)

Bakit ba kasi nagtatago pa sa ilalim ng table?
Para lang makapanggulat ng tao?
Ayan tuloy naumpog ka.
Sino ba itong RK na sinasabi ko.
HULAAN NYO!
In fairness, nagulat nya si Raf pero ndi si Lui.
Kasi nga tumama na ulo sa bench.
Kasiiiiiiii naman. :))


Have you heard the latest?
That Ging has a boyfriend?
His name goes by the name Seth
But he isn't freshman Bio major Seth Sanchez.
We will explain it tomorrow...erm, later.
Check out the apps logbook [aka OUR logbook]
Maybe youll find some clues there. ;)

GING! Gino! Laugh triiiiiiiiiiip. =))
Ang galing...winnerrrrr ito! :))


Workout.
Aerobic striptease.
Muscles still sore from last Tuesday.
Isolation. Body rolls. The best.
Because there is fulfillment in this pain. ;)

YouTube.com
Will relearn the moves to Britney's (I Got That) Boom Boom w the Ying Yang Twins
As well as Me Against the Music w Madonna
Because I'm a Slave 4 U is still the hottest.
Luffffffffffff! :D

YM stat:
aunque nunca lo supiste fue mi razon
Because five years was fun and I laugh about it now. :)


boys: stupid. paranoid. but cant live without ;em. :p
As Seth, Marc and Nic agreed.
Because my shoti is paranoid.
[Where are you, Gabriel?]
They sometimes give me a headache
But life without 'em would be shiiiiiiit. :)

Guilty pleasure: GUNS-N-ROSES. :D
- Sweet Child of Mine
- Welcome to the Jungle
- Paradise City
- Novemeber Rain [Because nothing lasts forever]


...erm, belated happy 22nd burdei to my OLD FRIEND. haha! Peace, Jeremy! :p